been ages since my last entry here.. blogwalking lagi laa lama, lagipun sekarang dah tak banyak blog2 best nak baca.. blogger semua da femes.. dyorang lagi suka update insta, fb and twitter..
just wanna share our Professional exam.. which was the most difficult and unfair exam in the world..
exam was held for only 4 days.. 3 days of written exam and 1 day clinical exam (or 2hours of clinical exam) to evaluate us to be a good and safe doctor..
written exam was difficult for me, especially MCQ.. maybe sebab tak banyak practice MCQ.. Ganyang MCQ ade macam2 version tp semua x buat.. apelaa.. or ade soalan simple, tp tak tau jawapan..haih..
but the most difficult part was when list name for clinical exam was out, and my name was in the 1st day. it's hard to accept it.. I cry almost 2 days (list name kluar ari selasa petang, nangis sampai pagi khamis tu.. ish3).. i'm too scared, feel like 'why me?', i'm not ready.. terus lost of appetite, I barely eat and sleep since the name was out.. As i'm the only lucky one in my house it makes more difficult.. people are laughing, 'chit-chating', discuss and sleep soundly.. but can't make it.. the tears keep falling down.. on Wednesday, i got my sense back, I know this is THE BEST for me, let's jest trust Allah. Allah who give us success after-all. I cry, but not as severe as the day before.. going through MME with a little knowledge on me.. As i keep get du'a from my friends it also give me strength. Everyone were praying for us the 1st day candidates.. thank you..
Thursday (17/04/14), the day came.. i'm too scared that morning, called mom that morning for her du'a, I wanna hug someone but my roommate was sleeping that morning.. i'm feeling lonely.. lucky Asna and Hajar was at the hall wishing me good luck that morning.. taking lift alone, i just wanna cry that time.. thinking i'm facing this alone..then, I meet others, my friends who will join the battle together.. we had almost had the same expression, most of us had swollen eye (due to crying and not enough sleep.. haha).. there were to much things that we don't know.. and we keep comforting each other by saying 'don't worry doctor don't ask it.. InsyaAllah'.. and I had my long case and shortcases.. Alhamdulillah (the examiners was supper kind, I'm glad)
As i'm the 1st batch for clinical exam, i got a week of holiday before the result is out. the 1st and 2nd day was not bad.. but the subsequent day, all the questions keep haunting me, and the answer too.. and I started nervous again, for the result.. thinking about written exam also make me getting chest pain.. As it was finish for me I can't do anything exam Du'a.. Tawakal.. that's all that I can do.. I'm jealous for those people who can read more and prepare more. but I believe ALLAH knows best for me..
25/04/14.. the 'result day'.. i really anxious, I can't really describe how it feel.. when the dean started to called name.. my hand start shaking, my heart pump 3x faster than before..and I hold Asna's hand to get courage (as Prof I had told her result, before the announcement) my name was not called until the last pages.. I thing my name was before Yuhairi, when Yuhairi's name was called, I told Asna 'nama eqa takde na.' almost cry T.T however 2 second later, my name was called 'nurul atiqah binti nor said', I barely heard my name and ask Asna and Bee is it my name?? Alhamdulillah..
Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for your plan, for giving this present for me.. thank you mak ayah for their du'a, they wake up and fast to pray for me.. thank you, there are the greatest supporter and for me.. thank you examiners, lecturers, teachers that teach us show us guide.. thank you friends for your du'a since i'm young.. thank you all who involve in thick and thin of our journey.. thank you
I know this is not the last not even the started of our journey..
p/s: to people who Allah choose, you'll be better than me... Allah do have great plan for all of u for the next 6 months.. i'm here, always pray for your success.. i'm also here if u want ears or shoulders..you are the strongest among us all ;)